THE JOURNEY STARTS HERE

So after what I can only describe a just a "beautiful day" down at Kanya with Gdog and Sammy I've had a chance to chill out, clear my head, put things into perspective and think about what I'm gunna do in 2 days time when the dreams over and I have to snap back to reality. In conclusion ive decided it's about time now to start my own life as an adult and get started with living this Spanish dream of mine. I wish it was just as simple as me going home getting more clothes my Bo and jumping on the next flight to Brazil or summin but unfortunately my life aint that easy and I've got a few commitments I need to sort out first but nuffin too big....I think the best way to sum it up is "I've got a few stepping stones I have to put in place before I can cross the water to paradise"

Anyway! For now I best head back to the apartment and start getting ready for tonight........it's gunna be goin orffff at DC10 tonight

THE HANGOVER....GAY CHINA MAN INCLUDED

What a madness! If í was to start writing whats been goin on the past few days on this maaaaaaaad island i definately wouldnt be reachin this beach party tonite........luckily Lench found the camera a minute ago tho so ill let the pictures do the talkin....when i get the time to put em on anyway

FLASHBACK

One from back in the days that ive been listening too again recently........they dont make music like this anymore.

LOVELIFE

Ahhhhhhhh man I feel on top of the world, I got my soundtrack to what's left of the summer from a nice little download sesh at Chals, just found out Aggis gunna be join us over in Beefa as well sheeeez! Boi the next couple weeks gun be poppin orrrrrrrrf haha I swear I'm just on a natural high right now regardless of the shit I've been coming home to recently. Lucky I'm capable of making myself happy....even luckier that I got people to make me even more happier though....

hhtp://podcast.dgen.net/rinsefm/podcast/MarcusNasty170811.mp3  

So........a new week a new start....Toms just been let go the poor git but its true as they say "when one door closes, another one opens" anyway as long as im alright.... :D

After breakfast and lunch in the sun today ive got Ibiza on the brain like maaaad....man i cant wait! n i swear this as been my longest lunch break ever what the hells goin on haha anyway just been vibzin out to this one which fits in perfectly with what im seeing right now when i close my eyes....pure summer vibes....toes out in the sand....cocktail with a little umbrella in it in hand....tanned ladies contantly passing my view of the horizon........pure bliss!

PASS THAT BUCK

Don't think today could of turned out any better actually, well except for my car breaking down in the car wash but thankfully a pretty young lady came to assist me. Anyway I wanna try get to sleep but the noises I can hear....

Its a shame I've never had a positive role model....well actually my mum for bringing up 2 kids by herself and never failing to provide for or protect us....not that thats something that I wanna go through myself but I just mean not backing down from your responsibilities you have in life and tryna throw the blame on someone else....as for the other one, puh! Not much more needs to be said. Anyway was a nice little gatherin 2nite eventho I reckon I'll wake up about half 3 with the meat sweats....roll on next Saturday tho....o yeh and new years....ah mate and ibiza in just over a week, damn i got a lot to look forward too!....

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

Synkro - Everybody Knows

Just had some mad weird little dream and can't get back to sleep now, there was some mad party goin on that I wanna try and get back to but it's hard tryna get back into a dream once you've already awoken from it....just realized as well that my dads taken my car and still aint home yet either....yeah nice one! Anyway I'm just chillling doin a bit of browsing on facebook as there ain't anything else I can think of or anyone that might still be awake for me to call but yeh after a quick scan of Gdogs wall I managed to find this tune I heard a few weeks back doin a bit of youtube surfing but I ain't been able to find it since cos the name of the artist ain't one that'd really stick, there's another one of his tunes with a picture of a woman standing next to a crashed car in Brighton that I wanna try find in the morning as well....but for now....ima vibes out till the nights out.

YOU'LL NEVER KNOW THE PAIN I FEEL

....nobody to share it with, so I keep it inside, sitting here drowning my sorrows on these dark and cold nights alone where nobody else can hear........

BACK BACK AND FORTH AND FORTH

Nice little weekend away that was....feelin nice and refreshed at the moment but could do with a couple more hours sleep.

So here we are again....i thought it was gunna be another episode of "round & round we go" and at first it was....but i suppose sometimes all people need is a bit of time to calm down and realise the reality of situations which is something i never used to bear in mind. I hate hearing her cry and i wanna be there for her so much....but at the same time i dont wanna be the excuse for anyone being pissed off or upset and end up being blamed for it when really all i have is the best intentions at heart....

they say "sometimes you've gotta go backwards in order to move forwards"....but lets just see if thats the case here........

G-DOG UP IN DA HOUSE....G-DOG UP IN YA SHIYAAAAT

Thursday night chill out sesh with G-Dog........flights booked........standaaaard!

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BLACK COFFEE

  

Ahhhhh man so the clocks just hit 5:30 and my day at works finally over, this time in 3 weeks ill be chiiling on a beach, top off, shades on, sippin a cocktail with a little umbrella init and snackin on watermelon toppin up my tan yeaaaah boi! Anyway i've been singing to myself quite a lot today and not only that but ive also been complimented on my forcetto or however you pronouce it....this ones actually been in my head all day....dunno why....i mean i like the tune but never really relaised how much i liked it till recently....i think its fair to say tho that your taste definately does change as you get older.

THE LATE NIGHT CALL

So we spoke for the first time in like 4 months last night….was quite weird actually….it took me back to the days I used to work in Iceland and id come home from work chill by my window smoking and we’d just talk on the phone for hours about everything and anything until our credit would run out, and its funny she didn’t believe me when I told her since then I’ve never done that with anyone else….its fair to say she got the best of me. I didn’t think id ever feel like I wouldn’t care that shes with someone else either but it really doesn’t bother me in the least….not in an arrogant way or in a sense that I am really jealous and tryna play it kool….cos Im not, but at the end of the day I kno the truth, I kno her, I know exactly what shes done, what shes doing and whats gunna happen soooo all ill do is leave it till time and everything will fall in place and shell realize that what all the stuff she thought was just me talking rubbish really is true.

TWICKENHAM DREAM

So its the end of what was such a beautiful weekend....Twickenham, the brothers, the sisters and the refreshment from what was discussed....I truly feel sorry for anyone that missed out as it was correct food at the right time....but boi in the least selfish soundin way possible as long as I'm doing what's right i don't really care what anyone else wants to do cos when THAT DAY comes nobody else is gunna be accountable for your actions except for yourself so as long as they've been given the opportunity and you've shown them what they can have their it's down to them to make the decision for themselves whether they'd rather live a lie of gain everything possible. Its also been a week where a few hard decisions had to be made but i can surely say that ive made the right ones and look foward to seeing the benifits of doing so. Anyway so I've just got back from making sure a few peeps got home safely but wernt I the lucky one to get home to a load of dog crap at the front room window....nice!

Anyway as the end of this eventful weekend fades away its also the beginning of something....a new year of life to me. 21 years ago today my mother (who i love very very much) gave birth to a baby boy who would turn out to be as I'm told a man that's "doing very well" before I raise my eyebrows in shock and look down to the floor in embarrassment. Its been a hell of a journey and I know a lot of people say that but havnt been through any journey at all but if I was to start with some of the stories and situations ive been in....then boi I'd definitely end up loosing this nice little high (spiritual high that is!) right now so let a just leave it there. But yeah after I'll I've been through ive seen, heard, fealt and learned a lot about life and slowly but surely learned more about myself, the person who I am and the person I wanna and am gunna be! And although I may fall short at some times I'll always go back to what I know is the TRUTH and keep tryna do what's right........and damn does God love a trier!

So as i try to wind down for the night and start to think about what this week has in store for me, the things im going to leave behind in life as of this day foward and the few adjustments that I need to make before i give my ALL to it........Good night world


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