BLAST FROM THE PAST

Was on facebook earlier and came across an old lady friend of mine....brought back so much memories of the school days ya kno, one in particular was when we were in Mr Erics RE class (the African guy with the red eyes that used to skitz out on people for no reason) haha anyway he kicked me out as per usual for talkin or sumfin and I was chill in outside graffin on the windows of the landing and a couple minutes later She gets kicked out as well. So were talkin and cracking some joke and dat when she tells me she's feelin me and thinks we should "deal" wid eachother....I didn't even know what that meant at the time but I basically said the same thing to her in that conversation and she didn't really understand what I was getting at either haha....I felt like the man tho....the new boy in skool hearin about how she liked me from other people to finally hearin it come outs her mouth, damn she was fine, rowdy as hell and didn't have it from no one....I think that's one of the things that really attracted me to her.

Looking back at my past I've blown so many opportunities with some good girls, not in a big headed way but just ones that have liked me but ive not really been bothered, mainly due to the reason of me still bein young at the time caught up in a hype out on the roads on a madness and just thinking about getting my name out there and building a rep up for myself....MADMAN! Well anyway I guess their all just lessons that I can learn from to help when the next one comes along....

....the things I'd do tho to be able to relive the school days again

EYES ON THE PRIZE

You know what....im feelin so happy right about now with the way that ive developed my self control recently, the main thing bein the lady department. I mean the opportunities ive had recently where ive just been able to walk away or blank it all together where as before it woulda been a completely different story....look at last Friday in Bromley....a fine example!

Now i know what i want....and more importantly i know what i need so i sure as hell aint gunna sell myself short and settle for anything less to fill a short term sense of satisfaction.

    

THE LOVEBOX ADVENTURE . part 2

So they've escorted out to the closest exit which fortunately for me was right next to the place I'd just jumped over, when I come out tho I see the group that helped me get the fence through standing there speechless and shook like they wanted to go home and just listen in on rinse fm instead........so I've continued my mission alone. About 300 meters from where that spot was and just past the old bill that I never even clocked were about 40ft away from me when I jumped in I see some guy place a white railing up against the fence and go straight over....as you can imagine my eyes lite up like Pookie just met Bling Bling and I'm tryna make my way over as quick as possible without my hotsteps drawin too much attention from the police standin half way between this spot and the old one.....so a minute later I'm up on the fence again....this time observing the surroundings to avoid another capture....this spot was behind one of the trailers so there was quite a bit of activity going on but not the kind of people that'd be a fret to me in this kinda situation so I jumped down....this time I lasted about 20 seconds which I would say is quite a good improvement from the last time, until I'm nabbed again....I tried speachin this guy as well as he decided to walk me right through the festival saying if I duck and give him a tenna to just let it be but he was like "mate I got kids to feed I cant afford to loose my job over a tenna" in the politest way possible but he tried helping me out by tellin me the best spot to jump over and where there's a shortage of staff....SAAAAFE!

Anyway Im back at the entrance now, hands dirty trainers kinda dusty looking up at the fence and thinkin "bun it I cant be bothered gettin turfed again im just gunna pay" so after hustling one of the women In the ticket office for a fiver off the ticket price I'm in!........from there on out the whole night was just a madness, bare old faces, bare regulars but just pure vibes.

Largin up LPC . GHZ . 1T . FT . DWS . EGS . RKS GDOG . ROSE . JOHN and everyone else that made that night what it was........that'll be the last night I ever go Catch in shoreditch again as well....what a pile of shit.

THE LOVEBOX ADVENTURE . part 1

I don't usually get time to write anything down until a Sunday evenin but last night took the party out of me so I just been chillin in today....well actually slept through most of it but yeh, just on facebook and chekin out some pictures from over the past week so thought I'd take a minute out and jot summin down before I rest my head for like the 6th time today. I feel so saw and I ain't even worked out for the past couple days....but it went till a little while ago I looked at where I'm achin to find bare bruises from climbin the fence at Lovebox yestaday....what a madness!

Headed down there from work and everyone else has been in there from like 2 when it started but when I'm on a move I like to do stuff myself so I thought yeh I'd be live to get in one man up. So I've reached Vicki park now at about 7 and finally found the section where it's all appenin and walkin around the outside of it tryna find the best spot to get in but theres nuff police and park police patrolling around the gaff oniiiiiiiit! But f***k it that all just ads to the buzz! Bare madness....anyway i see Stamina with a couple goons rolling about, that Poetz guy that does them jokes little things on grime daily, n a couple the SFL ones come up to me like "u tryna get in? Roll with us" but they seemed kinda bait so i just carried on with my mission.

So anyway after about 15 minutes of walkin round to where the old pool is I've found a nice bit secluded behind the bushes of some little power station thing....but eventho it's secluded there ain't nuffin to help me get over this 20ft bastard fence! Im'a G tho so it had to take it back to the days of cadets and soldier it out improvising with anything I could get my hands on haha so I've managed to get this bin over by putting my hands thru the femce of this power station bit and get it over but soon as I stepped on that the ting folded, so I clocked there was some old fence (like the blue ones that go around the kids playgrounds) so Ive put my hands thru to try get it out but the things heavvvvy boi but just as I started to struggle a couple other guys rolled up on the same ting but started getting shook when I told them to come ere and help me....anyway I managed to calm em down and get a bit more man power behind the operation....so we've stuck the fence up now and obviously I ain't gunna let these guys go over first for it to get hotted and for me to get caught soooo....I'm I'm up on the fence and I'm over....for about 8 seconds before these 2 hench Polish SGs nab me, I try speech em askin if I could sort em out a bit of doe for them to low me but one of them was a jobsworth prick and screwed it up....I know the other guy was on it as well....COCK!

to be continued........

In the mean time and inbetween time ima just wind down to this one:

2 TIMES FOR THE PUPS

Wo now that was deep! He started off with his usual "u do this, u do that wrong" so I decided to take a walk with the dogs. I think that few minutes away helped him to restragegise the way he's gunna deal with me cos when I come back in the way he broke it down to me I was just thinkin " yeah pups you the man! That's how a fathers supposed to be with their son" sometimes all it takes is a bit of comfort, reassuring someone on the things their doing right and suggesting a few ways in which to help them improve....mad love for my dad right about now....saved my life....along with the help of the farda of course.

It's crazy how deep my lifes getting and how much ive learned about myself over the past couple of weeks.

A LESSON ON MYSELF

So today I shared a few of my feelings with my pups....he was kool an dat and supportive instead of his usual - ima tell you what I'd do and I expect you to do the same!

I was on my way to Asda to go pick up a couple bits as it's been a while since I actually spent a night in chillin so the shelves and the fridge hadnt been topped up for quite a while....so im havin one of my usual deep thinkin sessions and tryna figure myself out....just tryna understand how and why i make the choices that lead to some of the things I do? Tryna put together the thing they all have in common is they all give me some kind of satisfaction. That's it! I do a lot for people like tryna help em out an dat and to be honest I can't really count a lot of things that people do for me so I guess it's kinda down to me to do things that just give me a buzz, help me to escape reality or make me just feel good regardless of who's expense it's at....

....I am....a thrill seeker!


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A DALSTON TALE

So I'm layin here in bed struggling to try and get to sleep but my brains not havin a bar of it as it now decides to go into overdrive recounting bits and bobs from over the wknd. I swear it's like birthday season right now tho with Drones last week n Resks and Drakes this week as well....I think it goes to show how much bedroom activity goes on durin the winter months don't it! But yeh........I'm just laying here laughing to myself about last night where those wanna be feds try pull a stunt on us when we hijacked the taxi in Dalston last night, o my days....thinking about it how the hell did that actually all happen? From us tryin to pull the taxi over to me sitting in the drivers seat rinsin off the horn and not letting the driver get back in the car haha what a madness but yeh from nowhere these 2 plastic cops pull up from nowhere, 2 kinda road looking black guys couldn't have been any older than twenty three twenty four....and now I got this damn private caller that won't stop ringin me LOW IT! Anyways so yeh we've just carried on doing what we was doin same way and hittin up some back street boms when I see flashin lights brighten up the shadows we were lurkin in luckily I dashed the groutie about 30ft in the air just before the pigs trotters hit the floor........anyway I can't remember too much of what was said between me and the ccps but lets just say I had the last laugh LITERALLY. Rhiannons crib........what a madness! Cookies, vodka, lost shoes, dry wipe markers and nail varnish........damn I Love my Partyin Crew


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IM ON ONE

Aaaah I just feel mad rite about now....my heads a state and I'm torn between the 2 paths to take....winding myself up about shit that I laugh about 2 seconds later....although I know what's right my flesh is starting to get the better of me and there ain't nobody about I wanna share my feelings with........I swear NOBODY in this world understands me!

So yet again its me, my twisted mind, arrogant attitude and my puffed up pride against the world.

........FUCK IT IM ON ONE........


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